02/03/2011

The second day of march, nothing special about today... Just that there are something bothering me... i dont know am i be able to do it anymore...as i dunno is he really dont want it anymore or he just wanna say it for making me staying... i still cant sleep peacefully, the nightmares just keep coming to me... i felt sorry for him, i lied to him that i sleep well the whole recent... yesterday had a talk with him... he said the promise still remains... am i pushing him too much? or he really wanted me as a brother? i really dont know what to do... and i told him i need time to think about us... i guess it is better like this because i can think what i really wanted and he can think about what he always wanted... i really cant hide my feelings for him... really wish he could just be positive ... he can be happy... even if im not around anymore... i know he will be... because he had many friends and brothers... he is not alone... not for me... you can just look at my photos then you will know...