22/06/2011

3 more days and i will be back to kl and see my doctor regarding my sickness, had been taking medicine for these 2 weeks... i dont think it helps anything...today is kinda bad day for me, im late for the assignment submission, had been overslept due to late sleeping, i never sleep more than 8 hours ever since i got back from kl 2 weeks ago... doctor say i should have taken enough rest and dont force myself to classes, he said before he will like to write a letter to college regarding my sickness but i rejected him, because i just wish that i still can go to class normally wont cause anyone trouble, but actually i had been causing a lot troubles to my friends and classmates...i feel so bad today, caused a lot trouble to everyone especially my groupmates... i just want to finish the assignment, i just wish to do what i can before im getting worst... im just being selfish... today, i feel my heart starting to getting pain for a moment as it feels like something is grabbing my heart and crushing it... the pain is bearable for a while but not for long... i guess this means that the time has come for me... my leg is feeling energy-less everyday now... i just hope i can still stand until i get my injection... im trying my best to blend in and act as normal as i can already... i guess only through blogging could release the ache in my heart... this is the first time i ever scolded someone and use my sickness to shut him up through phone in public... i felt so bad... maybe people cant control most of the things in most of the times...