10:05PM
Its been so long that i didnt log in to this blog and write about my life journey... many things happened for these few months... and now im in a relationship... with the guy i loved... he is very kind, caring, loving, and good charisma... he is quite different from other people... maybe this is why he attracted me... recently the nightmares of my past came back again... every single night i suffered the same nightmares all over again and again... if it wasnt the assignment handed down to me, i wont be able to distract from the nightmares... this seperation really makes me sad, but i will miss him everyday... even though he is not a 24/7 guy... somehow, he said i had changed after meeting me... i wonder am i being myself or someone else just for him? everyday im keeping a diary just to let me remember what he said and what is he doing... i think this is the only way i can remember him... my memories are fading... i couldnt remember much things compared to the past... hope the diary really could help me leaving happy memories for him as well as me... im really happy in this relationship now... so brothers dont worry about me after reading this... im not a baby anymore...
